I definitely won’t look back nostalgically on this year.  It’s been difficult physically and psychologically.  While I do seem to be coming through the physical issues, I am still dealing with some mental anguish. Hell, damn near any stupid television show or movie can make me think about something that upsets me.

The simple truth is I really need to reassess my life and just move on.  Stop wallowing in my self pity and get going with just the process of living a good life.  I used to, but lately I’ve let myself descend into an almost perpetual state of quasi-depression.

I need to get out there and mix it up with people like I used to.  I shouldn’t be watching life as it passes me by, I should be living it to the fullest once again.  No, my life hasn’t exactly turned out like I wanted it to, but then again most people don’t end up in the exact destination which they had initially intended.  Although, admittedly most don’t get derailed by a life altering incident, but that was 16 years ago.  It wasn’t that long ago that I was nothing but enthusiastic about everything.

Well, I’m going to start blogging once again.  That’s something I always enjoyed doing and unfortunately I let the collapse of Windows light spaces and the ascent of Facebook squash that enthusiastic endeavor.  I just can’t bare my soul on Facebook.  

I don’t know when the new thing became micro-blogging, but I definitely don’t like it.  Sure, it’s fun to catch up with some old friends, but in all honesty once you chat a couple of times there isn’t much more to catch up on.

I think tomorrow I’m going to go to the movie.  Forget about whatever else I had planned.  I can do it next week.  I need to stop worrying about not getting enough accomplished and think more about just having a good time.

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